it was a holidays period here, and I was stuck without a computer xDD

ssooo figures!! can only happen to me hahahaha ;D
instead of getting upset I kinda found it pretty amusing xD
it's my luck.

so anyway for like...how long was it?, the last week I spent the time looking at my computer-less room, I even bought a new sketchbook and tried drawing traditionally

was fun, but I prefer digital art.

so anyway, I just downloaded what I shouldn't have and got a violent virus, dad had the week off, holidays ;DD

so he worked on it, go daddy!

umm, there was no other way but to format
keeping all my manga anime and art collection (along many more stuff)
was not the problem, we put it all in the -terra-~!

it's like a huge disk on key thing, that has 1 mil giga bytes
and 1000000g=1 terra
so everyone in the house calls it the terra xD

anyway!! with that said, rest of my stuff, like installed programs that I never kept their install file, like photoshop
and mmaany many more!

are gone ;D!

so untill I get them back I'll use windows paint? xDD
I better start by going upstairs and taking the terra from my mom's computer
I am too lazy to get all mt back up files back lol

sorry for writing so much, been a while ;D

tomorrow I am having my first job interview @A@
I really want this job, I wanna make it! xD

they ask all kinds of difficult to answer questions that you have
to describe bad qualities of yourself, or situations you copped with before, it's all psychology, they even examine bodylanguage

I made a small research about interviews so I feel somewhat more prepared
but I guess they assume people do this kind of things?
I'll just try to be my usual self, only X43958345 times more stressed ;D

._.;
so yeah, tomorrow
2 buses to get there!
(means if I get the job, which starts on 8, I'll have to get up at like...5 am =3

omg wish me luck ORZ

sorry for spelling mistakes
I am so stressed, couldn't care less for them OTL

full of finger prints!! D<
this monitor is very delicate touching the screen itself isn't recommended as it might burn the pixles

I treated it as if it were gold!

now it's back for getting fixed, they replaced some particle, I dunno, full of fingerprints! ._.

the weren't even trying to hide it from me, the customer! ;_;

I don't feel like connecting it again, its been back for some time now, maybe a week?
I get upset when looking at it arrgg ,_,
so it's just lying around, well protected, untouched

we told them about the prints
all they said was "how did you expect us to hold onto it then?"

omg! I am so upset over this!! >=X

they actually lifted it by holding on the screen!
not only leaving their prints but also putting some pressure on it, I am afraid I'll connect it and see black/yellowish areas of burnt pixles ._.
I bet such thing wouldn't happen in the US!
or Canada, at least they know how to respect their customers!

is broken!
I dunno how, it just stopped all of a sudden and
now I am using an old monitor, my dad likes to
keep old equipment xP.

now this screen, will only allow me to use
600x800 resolution, and also, in a bugged way
of showing things,, everything is narrowed in
a twisted way, so I am not even sure how this journal entry will appear ^^:

hope I'll have my regular screen back soon ;-;

a flat and thin, this one is flat, but huuuge, I can't put it in front of me, and it is
annoying looking to the rigt all the time, esp when using a tablet, dunno how I could have worked like
that all the years I had a round thick screen
(which I loved!!♥)

bleh I always have to edit for the 'mood' taht I forget to set, look at this display, doesn't it fit
the issue? xD
*shot*

well I had an argument with someone who's really close to me,a family member it's irrelevant who it is esactly..

I am usually the calm type but really, I have my principles
and right now I am pissed.

this someone detests anything that has to do with manga
which is pretty much everything I draw

and it really hurts, when I create something I like, and show it around the house, hear what they think and consider suggestions, he makes a terrible face, and makes sure to let me know how manga is "all the same"
and also "it's just a matter of technique, not talent"

he asked me to join a realism art class and get better.
I can learn realism by my own, don't need to go study anything considering my basic level of art....I am still at the stage of self tutoring, I mean.

but still, I have faith in my style whether it is realism or manga or a combination of both.

what hurt me the most was that I showed him some realistic art that I did a way back, old art since I don't draw much realism at all
(should as well draw some..)

he said "all I see is manga in it, it's all manga"

I got annoyed and looked at him surprised
I felt like the hours put into it seem meaningless to him
and it's a day worth of them, I felt like I was hit by a truck;;
but I held my horses.

what I showed him wasn't manga..but it WAS fantasy..
an elven ear..different eye colors

but it was realistic,then I showed him a drawing of an actress
that I drew, also, a while back, but he lost patience and told me off.

should have started off with the actress one..? Px
and as well not mention the others..knowing the person in front of me;;

I am quite insulted, but I guess he's like that and I should know better,people vary, and most of the people around me offer me support.
I care alot for that person and I respect his opinion, can't force anyone into anything..just..I feel this kind of feeling like he has no faith in my creations and the effort I put into my hobby..it's a bit unpleasant

still, what matters is what I think of my own art.. I guess p=